My head is confused. Don’t know what to do after these bluries spinning in my mind. No future effections on my eyes, can set my mind free. I’ve never felt like this before. Everything becomes senseless and I guess I hit the wall so badly. Too much confusion chasing me with doubts. With exceptions, not so many, life sucks. Where is my God? Standing over there, staring and laughing? Prove you still there. Show your grace.
Deep into that darkness peering,
long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming
dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.